“We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once.” A few days ago I completed the 100 Day Dance Challenge, which I'm pretty amazed by. I have never stuck with a challenge for 100 days before, but because I kept getting positive results, it was not only easy but an incredible journey. What's really amazing is when I look back through my journal at how I was feeling and thinking right before it started. I keep my journal on my computer so I can look at it by date, and I went back to just over three months ago. There was a lot of anxiety in my entries, and a lot of desperation. A lot of feelings of being lost and always wishing I just knew what to do next. In the beginning of the challenge I had a lot of dark and intense dreams, often times about struggling or fearing for my life. I was surprised by this because I feel so different now it hardly even feels like me that was having that experience!I would say the most incredible change I went through from this is I no longer feel a longing for someone or something outside of me to lead the way. I trust myself and the decisions I make. I listen to myself. I'm way more in the moment and no longer pouring energy into future desires (or worries).
There are periods of time when I don't feel motivated but I feel everything's in a good and smooth flow. It's a time I feel happy to sit around, listening to music, and maybe doing a crossword puzzle, or maybe just catching up on Portlandia. I get to bed earlier and usually take longer to get going in the morning. It's not a feeling that I've reached a burnout and I'm just done. It's also different than the blah feeling of being depressed. It's a time I'm not interested in reading, meditating, writing or really much at all. I sometimes even skip my daily walks, which means I'm not even moving much. I've always felt it had to do with my spiritual journey, but I never could articulate exactly what was happening.
I used to really struggle with this and I wondered if something was wrong since I would get so tired, but not from ways I felt were normal (e.g. stress, lack of sleep, unhealthy habits, etc). Over the years I've learned if I trust and allow it to pass, it will. I've learned to go with these feelings of being quiet, being still, and just being. I try not to fight them or power through. Conversely, I also don't meditate and go into them. But I've always wondered, what is that? What does it mean to suddenly lose all of my passion, energy and drive and then have it just as suddenly return? I was clicking around William Linville's site and I found this audio snippet. I played it and I thought, "Yes! It's me integrating with Me!" If you've been taking time lately to meditate on your Higher Self, your I AM Presence, you might get these "down" urges also. It seems that each time I shift and step into a new awareness, essentially when I open that bridge between me and Me more, it follows with that period of time where I'm calm, quiet and wanting to rest. I hope that made sense. If you get these quiet times also, which are different than introspective, meditative quiet times, then the little audio above might help (William sometimes talks really fast, just as a heads up). And please remember to listen to yourself, get extra rest when you need it, and drink lots of water. The Violet Flame and Expect Miracles guided meditations can be bought together for $5.99. Click here to learn more!
The Violet Flame is one of the tools people use for ascension, or raising their vibration. It clears karma across all time, dimension, space & reality and transmutes energy on deep levels. Expect Miracles is a beautiful, heart warming meditation that can be used for grounding, connecting to your I AM presence, healing, transformation, opening and more. A wonderful way to also help with falling asleep & waking up feeling restored & refreshed. Learning how to be still, to really be still and let life happen - that stillness becomes a radiance. |