Each of my guided meditations comes with a beautiful six page workbook and journal.

The workbook is designed to deepen and enhance your experience with the meditations. It will help you to get clarity around what you need and to set clear intentions. When we write things down we set the intention even deeper, laying the foundation for a transformative experience.

The workbook will also help you to remember any insights or shifts you experience during the meditation.

You can use the workbook and journal each time you meditate, helping you to see how you change and evolve with it over time. To get your meditation and workbook browse the guided meditation store. When you checkout, use coupon code "journal" for 20% off your order.

The Golden Thread wasn't just one of the first meditations I made. It WAS the first. This is the meditation that started it all.

It's been six years since I felt an unexpected but powerful surge of energy and inspiration. As soon as I decided I would make my own guided meditations, I felt myself come alive. It was as if I'd been plugged into an outlet. The words for The Golden Thread began pouring into me. I wrote it all out in a notebook, terrified and excited.

I had never made a meditation before. I'd never made any sort of recording before. I was overwhelmed with nervous energy. My fear of not being good enough ramped up into overdrive. When I sat to record the meditation, I could barely get the words out. I played my recording back and was horrified by how I sounded. My voice was strained and far from soothing. So I did it again. And again. And again.

During those early recordings, I constantly stumbled on my words. My voice was shaky. I had to stop often and breathe. I had no idea I had such a fear of being heard. I had no idea I felt so unworthy of sharing my ideas and my own voice.

The first time someone bought the meditation my entire body stiffened in anxiety. It did not bring me comfort or a sense of having done something right. I only felt more fear. I was terrified they'd feel they'd wasted not only their money, but also their time. I was haunted by the idea that someone would play my meditation and feel frustrated and annoyed. I actually believed people would feel worse from my meditations.

It's an ironic twist of fate that making guided meditations made me more nervous and insecure. Meditation should help us to feel calm and centered, right? And yet I was anything but.

I didn't know what to do except to keep going, to walk through the fire of my fear and find out what was on the other side. 

And so I made more meditations, ones that addressed how I felt. I made the work I needed. I made meditations for deep fear, insecurity, and chronic stress. With each meditation, my work improved. I began to sound calm and sure of myself. I had no idea it would be such a labor of love to turn the vision in my head into reality. 

Eventually, I took what I had learned and re-recorded The Golden Thread. And guess what? I later did it again. And then... I did it again. I'm now selling version 4 in my store, and this version fills my heart with love and pride.

​Not only because I genuinely believe in the value of this version, but because of how I changed along the way.

I knew the only way I could truly share my work was if I learned to love not only it, but also myself. Tearing down my walls of self-loathing and criticism often felt like I was peeling off my skin. I was so uncomfortable and desperate I wanted to be someone else, to step into a new reality where I knew, deep inside, I was valuable and so was my work.

Of course, the only someone who could change my reality was me. And so I continued to make the work I needed. I made meditations that used visuals and words to shift my self-talk and connect me to my eternal spirit. I created meditations that connected me to something bigger than myself. I set out to find out what was beyond my fear, who I was outside of all this insecurity and mental chatter, and slowly but surely, it worked.

As the years went on, the tide began to turn and relief began to trickle in. I began to react to stress and fear different. I talked about my work different. I talked about myself different. In times of insecurity and doubt, I stopped and asked for help from a higher place. It was a slow transition, but each breath I took without a tight chest and a pit in my stomach inspired me to keep going. At my lowest point, I felt as if all the stress and fear might kill me. And in a way, it did. 

At some point along the way, the old Melissa died.

The Melissa that feels alone, afraid, and unworthy perished in the process. The new me, the me that feels loved and supported, was created in her place. When I meditate, I like to send the old me love and to let her know I wouldn't be here without her. I give her gratitude and send waves of healing light to the times I was most afraid.

When I started this blog post it was going to be all about the healing power of The Golden Thread. I went in a different direction there, and since I don't want to turn this into a novel, I'm going to have to talk about the meditation itself another day. For now, I want to thank you for being a part of this journey.

​You can learn more about The Golden Thread here. It's not isn't just my first meditation, it's my favorite.

​Cozy up in your favorite sweater and relax to this special seasonal meditation.

This meditation is both a powerful chakra healing tool and a means of surrendering. It will take you through an energy exercise that will bring healing and balance into your first three chakras. These lower chakras are deeply connected to the rhythms of the earth. Working with the energy of fall to heal and balance them will naturally restore harmony with your own inner rhythms. 

Along with this, you will go through a soul soothing visualization exercise for letting go.

​This exercise uses the visuals of falling leaves and a river. After it's done, you will feel lighter and more at peace. Your meditation will end with a final healing exercise, which will prepare you to go forward energized and open to beautiful new things.

This meditation comes with two complimentary audios.

The first is an abridged version of the full meditation. This ten minute Fall Meditation will allow you to let go when you have less time or less energy for the full. You won't go through the chakra healing exercise, but you will still experience the healing power of fall and surrendering.

Your second audio is a copy of the Root Chakra Affirmations. This audio will help you to further feel connected to this grounding and earthy season. 

​Along with your mp3s, you will receive the guided meditation workbook and journal. This six page workbook will help you to set intentions and get the most out of your meditation.
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A few wees ago, I felt guided to listen to The Golden Thread guided meditation every day for 40 days.

I created this meditation a few years ago (it's the first one I made!), and I play it from time to time, but this was the first time I got a specific message about it: try it for 40 days in a row and see what happens.

​I wasn't sure why, except for the knowing that doing something for 40 days can be a sacred and life changing experience. 

Now that I'm half way through it, I'm starting to understand what this is doing for me.

Usually, when people play this meditation they have a vivid dream, either right after playing it or after a few listens. I'm 20 days in, and although I've had interesting dreams thus far, last nights' was one that really told me something special was happening. In the dream I had traveled somewhere else, somewhere I can't recall, only that it wasn't where I live.

I had two choices: go back to where I was and what I had been doing, or follow whales as they swam around the earth.

When I saw the whales I knew instantly, I would follow them, and I did. Watching them swim and traveling through the oceans was the most beautiful, open, free and happy dream I've had in a long time. 

I believe part of the reason this meditation creates vivid and interesting dreams is because the imagery works on very deep levels of the psyche. There is the conscious experience you have while you play it, what you feel in your body, and then there are subconscious things happening that unfold and reveal themselves over time.

​The meditation guides you to look up to see a large white cloud. Hanging from the bottom of the cloud is a beautiful golden thread. The thread comes down from the sky, weaves through your entire body, and then drops into the soil, spreading out like roots. This is a very calming and serene experience, and one that will help you to feel supported and highly energized in the present moment.