This visualization was recorded as Episode 21 of my mini-meditation podcast. If you prefer to listen to it rather than read the text, click the button below the image!

​Take a deep breath
​Visualize a white light pouring down into the top of your head

​It melts down all through your mind
It melts through worries and concerns
It melts through self-doubt and insecurity
It melts through stress and fatigue

The Golden Thread wasn't just one of the first meditations I made. It WAS the first. This is the meditation that started it all.

It's been six years since I felt an unexpected but powerful surge of energy and inspiration. As soon as I decided I would make my own guided meditations, I felt myself come alive. It was as if I'd been plugged into an outlet. The words for The Golden Thread began pouring into me. I wrote it all out in a notebook, terrified and excited.

I had never made a meditation before. I'd never made any sort of recording before. I was overwhelmed with nervous energy. My fear of not being good enough ramped up into overdrive. When I sat to record the meditation, I could barely get the words out. I played my recording back and was horrified by how I sounded. My voice was strained and far from soothing. So I did it again. And again. And again.

During those early recordings, I constantly stumbled on my words. My voice was shaky. I had to stop often and breathe. I had no idea I had such a fear of being heard. I had no idea I felt so unworthy of sharing my ideas and my own voice.

The first time someone bought the meditation my entire body stiffened in anxiety. It did not bring me comfort or a sense of having done something right. I only felt more fear. I was terrified they'd feel they'd wasted not only their money, but also their time. I was haunted by the idea that someone would play my meditation and feel frustrated and annoyed. I actually believed people would feel worse from my meditations.

It's an ironic twist of fate that making guided meditations made me more nervous and insecure. Meditation should help us to feel calm and centered, right? And yet I was anything but.

I didn't know what to do except to keep going, to walk through the fire of my fear and find out what was on the other side. 

And so I made more meditations, ones that addressed how I felt. I made the work I needed. I made meditations for deep fear, insecurity, and chronic stress. With each meditation, my work improved. I began to sound calm and sure of myself. I had no idea it would be such a labor of love to turn the vision in my head into reality. 

Eventually, I took what I had learned and re-recorded The Golden Thread. And guess what? I later did it again. And then... I did it again. I'm now selling version 4 in my store, and this version fills my heart with love and pride.

​Not only because I genuinely believe in the value of this version, but because of how I changed along the way.

I knew the only way I could truly share my work was if I learned to love not only it, but also myself. Tearing down my walls of self-loathing and criticism often felt like I was peeling off my skin. I was so uncomfortable and desperate I wanted to be someone else, to step into a new reality where I knew, deep inside, I was valuable and so was my work.

Of course, the only someone who could change my reality was me. And so I continued to make the work I needed. I made meditations that used visuals and words to shift my self-talk and connect me to my eternal spirit. I created meditations that connected me to something bigger than myself. I set out to find out what was beyond my fear, who I was outside of all this insecurity and mental chatter, and slowly but surely, it worked.

As the years went on, the tide began to turn and relief began to trickle in. I began to react to stress and fear different. I talked about my work different. I talked about myself different. In times of insecurity and doubt, I stopped and asked for help from a higher place. It was a slow transition, but each breath I took without a tight chest and a pit in my stomach inspired me to keep going. At my lowest point, I felt as if all the stress and fear might kill me. And in a way, it did. 

At some point along the way, the old Melissa died.

The Melissa that feels alone, afraid, and unworthy perished in the process. The new me, the me that feels loved and supported, was created in her place. When I meditate, I like to send the old me love and to let her know I wouldn't be here without her. I give her gratitude and send waves of healing light to the times I was most afraid.

When I started this blog post it was going to be all about the healing power of The Golden Thread. I went in a different direction there, and since I don't want to turn this into a novel, I'm going to have to talk about the meditation itself another day. For now, I want to thank you for being a part of this journey.

​You can learn more about The Golden Thread here. It's not isn't just my first meditation, it's my favorite.

The Violet Flame is one of the tools people use to either begin or accelerate their spiritual ascension.

Part of the reason this meditation visual ties in so deeply with spiritual awakening is its association with the crown chakra. The crown chakra, or Sahasrara in Sanskrit, resides at the top of the head. It's your connection point to the divine, and is also violet in color.

​By activating the Violet Flame, you are activating your crown chakra. You clear any blocks you might have here to receiving divine guidance, wisdom, healing, and connection.

The Violet Flame clears and opens your connection to God, your Higher Self, your spirit, your divine healing abilities, and your guides and angels.

It helps you to step out of constricting your soul and to let to it open, expand and flourish. It also clears old karma that you have resolved and are done with. It clears dense, low vibrating energy and helps you to process it and step into the highest vibration available to you at this time.

The Violet Flame was introduced to human consciousness by St. Germain. It was brought into our awareness for the purpose of spiritual awakening and ascension.

Often times, when I meditate on it the feeling is so charged that it seems as if the air around me has thickened and is almost crackling with energy.

I love this spiritual tool, and the guided meditation I created to go along with it will further deepen your experience. The Violet Flame guided meditation will help you to center, connect to the center of our solar system, tune you into your I AM presence and let go of everything you're ready to release.

The Blue Flame is something I began using after some time with the Violet Flame.

If you feel called to try the Blue Flame first, then follow that. ​This flame will allow you to tune into feeling you are connecting to the hottest, most potent energy available for clearing, transmuting and healing. We often associate the color red with heat, but it is actually when a flame turns blue/white that it has reached its hottest temperature.

The Blue Flame will clear deeply stuck energy in your mind, body and spirit.

​It also works on karma and clearing density, but unlike the Violet Flame, the Blue Flame is something that works more on your present life. It is something that will help you when you're ready to go to the next step in your life, to truly release old patterns, to shut the door of one phase of your life, and to transition into a new phase.

​For this reason, The Blue Flame is something that can help you to actualize your desires into your life. It's like a partner to the Violet Flame, building on the spiritual awakening of the Violet Flame and helping you to remember you are a physical being with a powerful purpose in this world.

Cozy up in your favorite sweater and relax to this special seasonal meditation. 

This meditation is both a powerful chakra healing tool and a means of surrendering. It will take you through an energy exercise that will bring healing and balance into your first three chakras. These lower chakras are deeply connected to the rhythms of the earth. Working with the energy of fall to heal and balance them will naturally restore harmony with your own inner rhythms. ​

Along with this, you will go through a soul soothing visualization exercise for letting go.

​This exercise uses the visuals of falling leaves and a river. After it's done, you will feel lighter and more at peace. Your meditation will end with a final healing exercise, which will prepare you to go forward energized and open to beautiful new things.

This meditation comes with an abridged version.

This ten minute Fall Meditation will allow you to let go when you have less time or less energy for the full. You won't go through the chakra healing exercise, but you will still experience the healing power of fall and surrendering.

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A few wees ago, I felt guided to listen to The Golden Thread guided meditation every day for 40 days.

I created this meditation a few years ago (it's the first one I made!), and I play it from time to time, but this was the first time I got a specific message about it: try it for 40 days in a row and see what happens.

​I wasn't sure why, except for the knowing that doing something for 40 days can be a sacred and life changing experience. 

Now that I'm half way through it, I'm starting to understand what this is doing for me.

Usually, when people play this meditation they have a vivid dream, either right after playing it or after a few listens. I'm 20 days in, and although I've had interesting dreams thus far, last nights' was one that really told me something special was happening. In the dream I had traveled somewhere else, somewhere I can't recall, only that it wasn't where I live.

I had two choices: go back to where I was and what I had been doing, or follow whales as they swam around the earth.

When I saw the whales I knew instantly, I would follow them, and I did. Watching them swim and traveling through the oceans was the most beautiful, open, free and happy dream I've had in a long time. 

I believe part of the reason this meditation creates vivid and interesting dreams is because the imagery works on very deep levels of the psyche. There is the conscious experience you have while you play it, what you feel in your body, and then there are subconscious things happening that unfold and reveal themselves over time.

​The meditation guides you to look up to see a large white cloud. Hanging from the bottom of the cloud is a beautiful golden thread. The thread comes down from the sky, weaves through your entire body, and then drops into the soil, spreading out like roots. This is a very calming and serene experience, and one that will help you to feel supported and highly energized in the present moment.

Each of my guided meditations comes with a beautiful six page workbook and journal.

The workbook is designed to deepen and enhance your experience with the meditations. It will help you to get clarity around what you need and to set clear intentions. When we write things down we set the intention even deeper, laying the foundation for a transformative experience.

The workbook will also help you to remember any insights or shifts you experience during the meditation.

You can use the workbook and journal each time you meditate, helping you to see how you change and evolve with it over time. To get your meditation and workbook browse the guided meditation store.