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There are periods of time when I don't feel motivated but I feel everything's in a good and smooth flow. It's a time I feel happy to sit around, listening to music, and maybe doing a crossword puzzle, or maybe just catching up on Portlandia. I get to bed earlier and usually take longer to get going in the morning. It's not a feeling that I've reached a burnout and I'm just done. It's also different than the blah feeling of being depressed. It's a time I'm not interested in reading, meditating, writing or really much at all. I sometimes even skip my daily walks, which means I'm not even moving much. I've always felt it had to do with my spiritual journey, but I never could articulate exactly what was happening.
I used to really struggle with this and I wondered if something was wrong since I would get so tired, but not from ways I felt were normal (e.g. stress, lack of sleep, unhealthy habits, etc). Over the years I've learned if I trust and allow it to pass, it will. I've learned to go with these feelings of being quiet, being still, and just being. I try not to fight them or power through. Conversely, I also don't meditate and go into them. But I've always wondered, what is that? What does it mean to suddenly lose all of my passion, energy and drive and then have it just as suddenly return? I was clicking around William Linville's site and I found this audio snippet. I played it and I thought, "Yes! It's me integrating with Me!" If you've been taking time lately to meditate on your Higher Self, your I AM Presence, you might get these "down" urges also. It seems that each time I shift and step into a new awareness, essentially when I open that bridge between me and Me more, it follows with that period of time where I'm calm, quiet and wanting to rest. I hope that made sense. If you get these quiet times also, which are different than introspective, meditative quiet times, then the little audio above might help (William sometimes talks really fast, just as a heads up). And please remember to listen to yourself, get extra rest when you need it, and drink lots of water. |